When they say time flies during your 20s, it is true. Not that it has anything to do with age (age is really just a number) but the transition from college to adulthood, that sense of monetary freedom to do whatever you want with negligible responsibility (other than work of course) peaks your ambition to do as much as possible within the short span of time.
It has been half a year and I would like to take some time to reflect out of the craziness in my life.
It's a year since I've been truly out of a romantic relationship. Life so far feels exciting, in tandem with the anxiousness of uncertainty. A half year of self discovery, a ton of reflecting and pushing myself to do new things. I am out of the comfort zone I am used to and become far more ambitious than before - a good or bad thing I am not sure. I met someone inspiring though I've never said it. I made some crazy decisions, none of it I've regret (so far at least). I worked on myself quite a bit. I've been more appreciative than I had been for a while. I feel like I can do better. I travelled quite a bit - Tokyo, China, Malaysia (does this count?) and Indonesia - thus the number of landscape paintings again. I would love to go on a trip to chill and just paint nice historic buildings someday. I guess, being alone makes you think harder, take more risks and understand what you truly want to do in life. To me, being alone is a double edge sword, yet for now it should be regarded as a good thing.
I know I'll feel very much alone again (sometimes I still do, that hopeless romantic side of me, it's a blessing and curse) but let's see where life will take me. It's always a good time to make new memories.
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